it sucks to be sick.
had diarrhoea yest the whole day.
zapped all my energy.
miracle i can act type now..
dono how i gonna do for my tests dis week.
hai.
tmr s chem n lit test.
n tues chi test.
all haven study yet..
zuo wen supp to hand in tmr oso dono can finish not.
feel like dying now.
eating mashed potato.
n i feel like puking..din eat much the whole day.
*downpour in my soul.

haiyuuh i reali veh scared my tests la.
i dono...sucks la.
im spp to ask god to heal me.
i noe.
i dono.
mixed feelings now.
n i just feel weird.
feel so horribly weak.
n i hate it.

5:59 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ok guess what. my entry disappeared. it prob went over to tropical paradise.
we are now in ocean retreat.
and we are gonna drown.
*glug
lene is th octopus.
gin is the stick.
n im the star fish.
sirong is a rock dat is being eroded..
and u noe wad!!!
WE GOT 2 NEW MEMBERS!
THEY ARE *DRUM ROLL*
MATTHEW LOOOOOOOONG
AND SER MINNNN.
haha.
vote for SA to be Carlsberg friendliest awardd.
n xaviour is soo irritating
and u noe wad?

i discovered dat mrs lee looks like a bulldog. coz her skin is sagging.
oh dear.
i feel so mean....=]

butts in. HELLO!!! this is me!who is me? Ginny!!! hahahaha.

and we got 4 tests nt week.
howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww?
i feel so lazy lor. haiyuh. and i will feel so stressed.
and maths sucks. i ddono how to do den gini enlightened me.
hoo hoo hoo hooooooooooooooo.*tigger jumps*

HELLO!!

ok.ginis mad.she typed dat.
aiya.latr got guides n we r building flagpole.
sirong shuttap.=]
and i forgot wad i wanted to say.
yes.i remembered.
i splurged alot on earrings these 2 weeks. hai.
well its not alot but its alot.
haha.
i dono wad im toking.
n we saw alot of nice shoes..n i finaly bough my slippers after ten loonnngg yrs.
i went to all the shops n all the shoes were tooo small lor.
i was so irritated.n i was quite desperate.n they (gin n lene) were telling me not to buy it in a hurry.
so i dint.
HELLO!
n we were scrutinizing ms ng and we found dat she was rather shapeless. den we went metro n saw alot of ms ng's type of clothes..tsk tsk *shakes head*

and im so sad coz i only blogged once dis week. boo.
and =] i dono.
i miss my di's retardedness. hahas.
and xaviour kept hitting me on the arm and asking me to teach him the guides dance.
i told him no.unless he was a guide.

hoo hoo hoo hooooooooooooooooooooo*

1:43 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i will sing.
i will praise.
even in my darkest hour.
through the sorrow and the pain.
i will sing.

sigh.
i dono wad is wrong.
tell me.
wad is wrong.
tell me.

cried out to god last nite..
wrote another two songs.
"daddy's girl" and i dono the title of the other one.
went shopping with ma.
bought clothes.
hhahh.seem so fine.
lke nothings happened.
buti noe got one lor.

tell me wad is wrong.
tellme.

when all the world is crashing down
when my world falls to the ground
i feel like i cant see
you re always there to rescue me
its so hard to keep a smile upon my face.

supp to be studyin geog.

dangerously in love.
sing a love song to god.

i am in love with you
you set me free
i cant do this thing
in life withouut you
here with me
coz im
dangerously in love with you
i ll never leave
just keep loving me
the way u love ure loving me

well..seems weird to sing dis to god?
tink its fine.
to be dangerously in love with him.
willing to go to any extreme danger for him.
to sacrifice and die to self
for him.
dangerously in love.

*i love you

1:46 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i think mrs lee is so funny..
she keeps saying "excuse me"
every sentence she said was "excuse me"
excuse me!
hahs..and we played ping pong n sirong was so irritating. he kept hitting balls dat i cudn hit cos it was too fast, huh!

with arms wide open.

child of destiny..

hahas..im so happy..kennth lent me his sis destiny's child cd!!
finally. after so long..i finally get to listen again.
and we went mad in class yest..we recorded our singin of "emotions" on lene's fone..haha.
cos the fone image sucks..my mouth looked distorted..
so funny..=]
and we had new notebooks..anti drug.we turn the cover n lene drew ten ginnys all over the cover page. hahas..and sirong had a spider on his.
aiya.
i veh guilty..never study..i go offf liao.
sorry god.

*perfunctory

7:58 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

im checkin my mail. was so shocked to see 19 new messages.cos usually i dun get.
im supp to be doin my maths hmwk now. oh ackx.
tokin to lene on the fone now..:D
we went mad again today!! went to tm..n i bought earrings!!
haha. i fee so happy coz i bought sumting! hahas.dats how pathetic n how seldom i buy things.:)
hahas..haiyuh put down areadi..
anw.. the SA blog is up but its so..horrible.no time to go mk it. n im lazy..hehehee.
and i want to thank god!! i did quite well for my chinese!! hahas. got 72!! im so happy!! 36/50.
and i was listenin to "better than life" on the bus dis morn.
den i felt so happy i wanted to jump arn the bus n scream.
hahas.
imagine if i did dat!
woohoo!! i feel maddddddddddddd.
xiang is writing to me in funny writing.
hahas..

throwing off restrain
i ll praise you recklessly
cos i want the world to see
i want the world to see your glory!

woohooooooooooo.
i shall go and study now.
i want to thank youuuuuu god!!
for helping me wake up so early dis whole week.
for making me happy!
for giving me lene n gini.n everyone else!
for helping me financially!
for providing my every need!
for giving enuf rest!
for giving me laughter n joy!
for making me!
and the list goes on!!!!

8:47 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ah hah. i feel weird.
just came back fm skool..and its so earlyyyyyyyy~
hahas *grins*
hai. dono why but i was so stressed last nitght that i cried.
had so many things on y mind and i felt so helpless.
do you know?
sigh.
any way i cried out to god n asked him to take everything away!
and he did! after i cried n felt horrible. msged alot of ppl..ok..not alot..n told them..btw:
happy best friends day!
to all my good frens n best frens..it was yesterday:)
yar..was stressed bout o's, handprints, cell and my emotions.
it's just emotions taking me over
hurrrrr.
told god to tk it all away!
and i studied bio aftr dat.well todays test was ok.i one qn wrong liao..haiyuh.nvm.
tmr is chi test..gonna study n mug later.
and today in skool we were all noisy n madd!
we formed SA!! Spastic Association. consisting of me, lene, ginny and sirong! ah hahs..n we all laughed alot today.
i tell you ah! mrs helen chew is so spastic! and irritating!
anw im gonna create our blog called SA! n it will be in my links! go see keh!
hahas.

Father of life
draw me closer
Lord my heart is set on you
Let me run the race of time
with your life enfolding mine
and let the peace of god
let it reign
...
Oh Holy Spirit
saturate my soul
and let the life of god
fill me now
let your healing power
bring life and make me whole
and let the peace of God
let it reign
darlene zschech

i tied my hair to skool today=]

3:09 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

haiyuh.
todya is a boring and super sian day.just hopped arn the blogs n found dat nth much was happenin..guess peeps r busy with skool.well for those who read..god bless you! and i wanna give this short passage to encourage u guys who are feeling low and depressed and tired:

My dear child,

you ask me where i am. My child, i am with you, and will always be. You are weak, but in Me you are strong. I love you so much that i can't let you die. i am so close that i feel everything you feel.
i know what you are going through, for i am going through it with you. But i have set you free and you must stand firm. You do not need to die physically for my enemies to be gone, but be crucified wtih me and i will live in you, and you shall live with me.
i will direct you in paths of righteousness.
My child i truly love you and will never forsake you, for you are truly mine.
Love God.

ahh.so nice..:) thankew god..
had both eng n chi compo today n i wanted to die just doin it..hai.n im falling sick.which sucks totally. *pui. lene n me both went home tog on 31 bus n i was blowing my nose away when we saw the show "ways of the matriach"..haha.we were laughing like mad on the bus n i tink ppl thot we were nuts.:P
hahas..den on the way hm..we realised dat 4 yrs had passed..and we had spent 4 yrs tog in the same class..how cool is dat..n we culdn believe it n were laughing hysterically..*grins.
den..hai.in skool dat time..i proved dat my chi sucked! i phrased things horribly..dat made gini lene n sirong n kenneth all laugh.
-whines
its not fair k.my chinese really sucks..hai.i must improve it.


*dreads nt week.
got 3 tests n they r all so scary. (i got headache) bio on mon, chi on tues, and maths dono when..haiyuh.
Lord please help me...im tired n blah.and i dowan to study.please give me strength n discipline!!!

how time flies-

8:21 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

oh haha.i feel mad. went to tm with lene n was raining. we were strugglin woth e umbrella cos i was laughin n shaking it.n was veh noisy..hahas..den she was screaming at me to stop moving..:D hee.

hai.the niggle grew and grew.ppl say to just let her learn her mistake? i dono..i feel dat ive done nothing.done nth to help her.n im always angry at her? im ont..im just..sad..disappointed dat shes lidat..dono wad to do..

LORD please enlighten me!!

ohs.im very sure i want to go SA!! i shall mug mug mug..and saint andrew's here i come! lene goin too..but shes scared she cant get in..hai.im scared too.i shall work veh hard! -determined face- and i dono wad to study..medical? language?

LORD enlighten me!!

i must seek god alot. especially dis yr..missions me n steff in charge..supp to coach them..n o's..n got peronal stuff..hai.

shuck.was late dis morn.woke up at 7? i rush den took taxi..470..not so bad..but i wasted money..hai.): but reached skool on time..den the chi test wasn so bad..hope i wun fail..nt week got maths n chi test.sucks la..both on mon? aiyyuh.

anyway.i have decided to wake up at 5 every morn to my qt.but i failed today..): i shall not be discouraged!!! hurrrrr.

*raindrops kep falling on my head

6:19 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

oh.shuckx.
i forgot my password for my other email account.the ardentwhees one.ahh! *screams. mum's frens in china send their mail to their. oh no!!
-wanto cry-
and i set the stupid secret qn "wads my aniversary." and i forgot the answer too!! grrrs.haiyuh.how. hope dey din send or aniting.feel so stupid now.
was listening to a song..super nice! by the evanesence girl..cant stand her. i want to sing like her. ):

isnt something missing
isnt someone missing me

ahh! wads the title? i dono.please enlighten me![: hah.im so outdated with music.is it a new song? dun tink it is..
not bad..i managed to read two three stories last nite..chinese stories!! AH HAH. today i shall finish it! and im in chrch office..feels so weird now to be using chrch com.so long nv use.
gor..hai.someting terrible happend..but i shall not blog it out..): im sad for him..n i guess i noe how he feels..mayb a lil..wish i cud hug him..n make him smile..he is like so big n strong n muscular..but inside is he? *miss u. n anw i dun tink he will read dis..so..ya. i still love him n i only haf one gor. gor rocks!

ooosH. china seemed so long ago.n i haven replied mindy yet.so happy she sent me hny card..no time to write.ahh! n haven replied alot of ppl's letters. sorry.. ): *smiles apologetically.

betta go down n help kfc nursery. babysitting time.

8:12 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

hahas.how nice.im supposed to study now.for mon's yue du bi sai.hai.its so crap la. last time open bk can refer.now cannot.wad crap. ):
ut i feel so much better now. more relieved. relaxed. resting in god helps.ALOT! n i dono..

let your face shine on us
and the world will know you live.

consuming fire
fan into flame
a passion for your name

hai.m i living a life dat pleases god? i wanto be consumed by god. that everyting i do or say will give him glory.
i dono..im suddenly lost for words.

lost for words with all to say
lord you take my breath away
still my soul, my soul cries out
you are holy

saw mummy today..he was wearing orange.it rocks! ahahss. haiya.sad.i put on 2kg. guess how heavy i am? i shall not reveal the horrible secret! but good news is i grew! haha! 159..well wanto grow to 160+..huh.at least a 16+! hahas.
mama just called.n i remb the horrible incident dat happend..hahas.i shall not tok bout it.

i wanted to say alot of things but i cant remember! so irritating.hai.

"love your neighbour as yourself." dats so difficult. but i shall do it for god.
"honour your father and mother.." dats difficult too..even quarreled wif ma n dad dis aftnn.bout some stupid ting.hai.lene listened to my woes n complainin.thanx dear.

i do believe in fairies.i do! i do!
i miss watching movies with lene n gini.hai.dis yr o's. im so stressed. sighs.

only you and me now

10:42 PM

*breathes a sigh of relief

i finally finish my ss. and orientation is finally ovr!
hai. i feel emotionally n physically drained. but im a new person?
y r some ppl just so hypocritical..when dey say dey wun be late but dey purposely turn up late? say canbe done but dey claim its a waste of time? n seem so nice..
hai.
n im sorry god dat i gossiped.

take my beauty
take my sin
this sin-soaked heart and make it yours

i want to be consumed by u.by u alone.
i want to tok bout u every single sec. my mind to be filled with u every min.
dat ppl wil see u in me.

ive got tests nt wk.n i haven started.so dead.
hai.betta rush to chrch now.

*in a dream

3:36 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i feel so irritated now. doin the stupid ss tingy again n i nv seem to ever finish it. now only typing iran's culture. i want to cry.
*hai
well.im sorry.i din mean to do it anyway.

so i'll throw my life upon all that you are
cause i know you gave it all for me
when all else fades away
my soul will dance with you
where the love lasts forever
united

empty handed but alive in your hands
united

hai.
wish i can run away to a ulu place and never come back.
run away with my mummy. i miss him.
run away with my red buddy.

only the first week of skool.second day and i wanto..
-sigh-
but i will look to you.
you will renew my strength.

drinking red wine warms up my body.hai.miss the red bull days.

tired.

11:34 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

im dead tired. hai. haven completed china's write up yet. gonna copy a lil more than cut cut cut.den pack up n write my diary.den tok to god.den sleep.hope i can wake up tmr.
sigh.
stressed.
n my mind is full of stuff.

lord take all this away.
please

falls//

11:35 PM

ahhs.
today was the first day of skool. well..quite ok.only stupid ting was i brought all my books..n there were no lessons..oh well.
the new principa; is ok..quite irritating but much betta den mr wang.
sighs. i dono why im feeling so solemn.hahs. maybe coz today dey were askin us to do a testimonial on ourselves..n rank urself wad level n stuff. i found out dat god made each of us so different.n our character is so..unique? i dono how to say..n like im so inefficient n "lousy" in a sense..dat i can nv survive without god's love.

have i grown cold to you?
have i been turning a deaf ear?
i dont know wad n where i am now.
but im sure i need you n i want you by my side.
always

hmms.the new yr.new form teacher.(she tok veh soft)n alot of studying to do..e principal just gace us pressure.hai.n wad am i doin online? -shrugs-
n im quite an introvert..am i? hahas..any way sirong is so nice to give us stuff fm disneyland..i got lilo..lene got tinkerbell n gini got minnie mouse.*laughs*
ok.i stink.better go bathe.

im still solemn.

i need you
more than ever now

3:37 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ah hahs.
ocean's 11 rocks! so exciting n super cool lah! matt damon rocks!
i feel so excited cox im writing b4 my parents get back.
hahs.
*scoots away b4 dey reach hm.

8:48 PM

ahhaaahhh!!! im so happy!
finally done finish my blog n tagboard.
people..tagboard is below..please tag!
hahas.feel so accomplished.
*grins widely

hai.tmr start skool.sad la. n after skool got guides..not dat its not fun..just tiring..n i wanna go out with lene..we neeed to catch up..hahas.the nichee co/laohong co had stopped.we shall now start producing laohong bread agn! the 3rd sequel to e breadfight!
*laughs
look forward tmr though coz can see lene.gini.sirong.n everyone else!! -jumps arn spastically
but my modem days may come to an end.hai.sad.

new yr resolutions:
*lose weight
*study hard n be a nerd (super diff.god help me)
*wake up n do qt (i canot sleep)
*manage my time well
*save at least $10 a week (at least 5)

ahh! god please help me do this! im trusting in you! :)

7:32 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2:46 AM

ah hahas/i changed it by myself! im so proud! :) *grins.
hai.now so late. i shall haf to do my tagboard another time.
*yawns
n add stuff.
i love jesus.

2:44 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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